Thankful

People say that happiness doesn't last forever, love doesn't last forever, nothing lasts forever. Some of us might have experienced disappointing, or even devastating relationships, and it's difficult for us to trust and believe in all the good things in the world again. But things happen, sometimes without any justifiable reasons that we can understand. But I do believe that they happen because they need to happen. Maybe your bf dumped you 'cause he's not right for you, and Mr. Right is just right around the corner waiting for you. Maybe you've been too blessed so you need to experience something for your own growth & development. Whatever the reasons might be, things don't happen just because everyone wants to see you upset & break down. Sometimes things are just perfect with their imperfection, right? And life goes on, no matter what happens.

It's been a little more than 3 yrs with Yip now. I'm really glad that we're still the way we are in the beginning, just better. I used to worry about the tiniest little things, things that wouldn't bother me anymore today. But that's a stage that I had to go through, and so I did. I had an awesome time this past week, but when I think about it, I can't really pinpoint why that is. Things are just normal as usual, we follow the same routines, but I feel so loved and blessed. Even on rainy days. I'm really glad that although there's no apparent excitement in our relationship, we don't feel bored with each other. I still love family dinners, I still love to watch him play soccer (even more than b4), I still love to stay at his house even when he's downstairs & I'm upstairs working separately. I'm really thankful for what I have, because it's so simple and comfortable to be with him. And it's not just him -- including his family & friends. It feels like this is the way life should be. Sometimes I still feel the way we used to be when we first dated. A tiny compliment from him can cheer me up & make me so excited. Maybe this is what comes with the first love package~

Although there are less fortunate friends around me who have lost their once sweet relationships, I still believe in happily ever after. Who knows? I can't be 100% sure that he won't cheat on me; I can't be 100% sure that he won't leave me for other reasons. But that's life...what can we be 100% sure of? The only thing I know is that I want to believe in what I want, and if I don't, it's more difficult for it to happen. We all need to have hopes in life, no matter how unpredictable it is. It's what keeps us going, keeps us learning, keeps us living, keeps us loving. =)

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I'm half way through Dalai Lama's < The Universe in a Single Atom >, and almost finished reading Emily Giffin's < Something Borrowed >. I'll be so occupied with books this summer! I have a few non-fictions on my bookshelf, another Emily Giffin book, < Something Blue >, that Annie lent me, and about 10 亦舒 books that my aunt just gave me~ They'll keep me busy while I wait for Nicholas Sparks' < Dear John >'s paperback. =P